What Have You Struggled With In Isolation?
I've been Struggling with this idea of isolation well before the lockdown, my mind isolated from my creativity and drive to succeed. A never ending feeling of procrastination and anxieties of self worth and my Direction in life looms over me, a forever recurring thought manifesting itself into a reality over the past couple of years, i have also struggled with addiction throughout isolation putting unimportant things in the foreground of my life and ignoring the part of me that makes me who i am, losing myself to my thoughts and having doubts about myself is something that has been here well before the lockdown and has stayed with me throughout it holding my hand, wasting my time!
How Have You dealt with this struggle?
I'm always in the struggle to deal with my anxieties, emotions and thoughts suffocating and overwhelming me hindering my ability to create and put myself out there as a an artist, when the opportunity arose to join the art project 'connect and inspire' i was hesitant at first to get involved as my social anxieties to the unfamiliar are still very present and still hold me back from opportunity. some persuasive and comforting conversations with my girlfriend about my anxieties lead me to take that leap and sign up for the PROJECT THIS IS ME TRYING TO DEAL WITH THESE ISSUES IN IT'S TRUSTEST FORM, COLLABARTING AND NETWORKING WITH THES AMAZING AND INSPIRING ARTISTS HAS TRUELY HAD AN IMPACT ON MY THOUGHT PROCESS ABOUT MY POTENTIAL AS AN ARTIST, SEEING THE OTHERS DETERMINATION, COMMITMENT AND WORK ETHIC TOWARDS THEIR ART HAS INSPIRED ME LIFTING MY SPIRT TO ACHIEVE BETTER WITHIN MYSELF AND MY ART, I NEED TO EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS THROUGH MY ART APPOSED TO BOTTLING IT UP AND DWELLING ON SICKLY THOUGHTS OF NOT CARING, NOT WANTING TO ACHIEVE OR TO BE SUCCESSFUL. ITS TIME TO PUT THE SMOKE AND CONTROLLER DOWN AND PUT MY PEN TO PAPER BECAUSE THATS MY GIFT. I HAVE LOST TOUCH WITH MY IMAGINATION BUT THE ONLY WAY TO INSPIRE IS TO BE INSPIRED AND THATS WHAT THIS GROUP OF PEOPLE HAS DONE FOR ME DURING THIS PERIOD OF ISOLATION HELPING ME ESCAPE FROM MY DORMENT REALITY OF PROCRASTINATION AND GAMES.DELVING INTO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE TO DEAL WITH THIS SENSATION THAT IM TRAPPED IN A RECURRING LOOP WITHIN MY MIND AND IM MY LIFE.
I'm currently in the process of working on an animation on this idea of isolation and feeling trapped, here some process shots: Storyboards and Character Sheet.
What Have you found in you 5km radius during isolation?
This is kind of a funny question for me, because i work as a delivery driver and grew up in the area my whole life so there's not much around here that i don't know about, theirs a cool abandoned building we call the hayshed right next to my work in my youth i'd go in there with my mates to do murals and tags. its a pretty dangerous building though with and elevator shaft that has a 3 story drop on to a ground 10 inchs thick with bird shit, holes in the floor no railing on anything but back in the day it was the perfect place to paint!
I live near the beach, not that i take advantage of it ever even during summer, but the place I've been going the most during lockdown is the dog park now that's a happy place for both me and my dog, always puts a smile on my face.